|Posted by elenahuerta10 on May 30, 2016 at 12:45 AM|
There's something profound about looking at the ocean, and realizing how small I am in this universe. And at the same time knowing how big of an impact I have the potential to make in my immediate world and the ones of those around me.
I never want to dull myself down to fit the expectations of someone else - how does diminishing my own light help others shine? It doesn't. By example, when I choose to shine I give others the experience to do the same thing. There is no way to live my purpose, or purposes, without letting myself fall into who I actually am. And I hope in the times when the world weighs heavy, the times when I am overcome by emotion, I always remember that no shine has my exact aura and brightness because we are all unique in our corners of the universe.
Conforming a passion to society or outside source is nearly detrimental to my creativity, because in the process I move away from that feeling that fueled my passion in the first place. The focus shifts from something in my soul to a game, from trust to force. And really, how much control do I have over the world as a whole? I feel this is one of the biggest battles I've faced as I pursue my artistic passion - realizing that I need to trust my inclination to create these parts of myself to release to the world in order to stay sane. Because there can, has, and will come times when I am on the verge of giving up, and it takes all I have and some of what I never imagined that I did to give up and let go for a while. I tap into a space in my heart that I didn't know existed in these times, or have forgotten about in the midst of time. I believe that I imagine for a reason; I don't always trust that belief, but at my very core I do feel these visions are not an accident nor out of my reach of manifestation.