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Yoga

Posted by elenahuerta10 on July 16, 2017 at 6:45 PM Comments comments (0)

   

I've been doing Yoga for 11 years. 11 YEARS! That's a long time to be committed to a practice! It's humbled me in so many ways, taught me my limits, reminded me to stay present with myself in this moment, etc. Yoga has me always looking for where I can improve and doing so with honest grace. For a while I attributed my actual sanity to my yoga practice, a place where during some of the most stressful times of my life I could come to destress and let go. It's my forever love affair, my spirituality, my grounding, my strength - or rather, it brings out all these things within me that I love.

I want to share with my friends some of my favorite channels. I've been in practicing at home for most of my years, and attending classes with a variety of teachers. Some of those teachers have also become good friends. And some of my friends have become teachers! If you are looking to start an at-home practice, here are a couple places to get started:

Yoga with Adrienne

Her sense of humor keeps me coming back. I often find myself cracking up at her jokes, as she has a very similar ironic humor as I do.

Sarah Beth Yoga

She does such a great job offering alternative poses to beginner and advanced practitioners. A little sub-screen pops up in the corner of her videos so that you can actually see the variations that she is talking about.





Thank you Yogi Tea for this tea inspo! Love their little tea messages.

Wyeth Campground Hike #400

Posted by elenahuerta10 on July 14, 2017 at 6:35 PM Comments comments (0)

Today we ventured out intended to visit the Starvation Creek Trail right outside of Hood River Oregon. The parking lot was full! Being set on finding a place to go into nature, I stared looking around. I came across the Wyeth trailhead on my Iphone and decided that was the spot, so there we went!

I arrived to find that I would need to pay a fee to park, but between the toddler anxious to go for a walk and my reluctance to find another spot I decided to simply pay the fee to hike. I usually use the bathroom at those campgrounds when I'm driving to Portland, so I felt like it was only right that I contribute to the upkeep of it!

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We started walking and came to a really gorgeous, well built wooden bridge. The view of the creek was stunning.



(Side note: Yes that is me! I decided to temporarily dye my hair leading up to the couple festivals I'll be working at this summer. :) Second Star Festival and Faerieworlds!)

THAT VIEW THOUGH.

Phoenix wanted to lead through the first part of the trail, until we started to go up an incline.







We went up quite a ways and came to a clearing of sorts. It was very curiousity inspiring. The one person we saw on the entire hike stopeped on his way back to camp, explaining how the clearing was likely due to a rockslide. You can see in the pictures how there are no trees, but the rocks are being taken over with moss and succulents. He said that down a ways, there were more clearings and one of them appears to have new trees growing. He said it was about a 1000 year process to complete and we were only seeing a glimpse of it. How freaking cool! There I was sitting, wondering if parks and rec had cleared the trees to create a viewpoint of the Columbia River, just to be told that it was Nature that cleared  the area. It turns out a perfect view spot was created. Phoenix and I took a break for a little while and then continued back toward where we came from.




Phoenix was tired after watching the river and trains go by, so we headed back. I gave him a piggy back ride the majority of the way until we reached the bridge! Of course he would want to walk across it on his own. While he examined the creek from above again, I ventured below where the water ran through. I let the water run through and along my fingers - such a freeing and blissful feeling! We met again and headed back to the car to complete our journey.

Panther Creek Adventure

Posted by elenahuerta10 on July 6, 2017 at 10:30 PM Comments comments (0)

I took my son car camping for the first time in the beautiful and scenic Gifford Pinchot National Forest. Specifically right along Panther Creek. It was so gorgeous, the entire way to the site I kept wanting to stop and photograph the natural surroundings because I'm kind of obsessed with capturing Nature's beauty. We stopped for a couple things, water and a lighter, and at one point my son saw his first deer up close. They were no more than 10 feet from us, just exploring by the convenience store there were two!


I wanted to get to the campsite before it had gotten dark. I had decided the easiest way for me to camp solo with a babe was to rearrange my RAV4, have my Japanese futon mattress in the back, and create a sort of nest. I did just this while my son skipped around the site. The campsites were actually really nice for rural sites. They were spacious and each had firpits to use. I had brought a BBQ box to burn which didn't lead to a full campfire for the night, but the coals went for hours after my son went to bed so I could sit by them and be warm. Once the bed was set up Phoenix played in the car. The entire trip he was so excited to have his little cubby to hang out in.




I got Phoenix to sleep with the back door open that night, thinking the sound of the river would be nice for him to sleep to. I had been able to back up fairly close to the water and the sounds were surreal. In fact it was so loud that at one point I had the crazy idea that I would have preferred total silence to the sound of the river. I later realized that the reason why I was being easily overwhelmed was because I was to start my menstrual cycle that next day. More on that later, which I'm sure you're excited about! ;)



After all was set and Phoenix was down, I sat and meditated for a very long time. A couple times I felt something on my foot and kicked it off, a little weirded out. It happened until I saw a mouse run by me and realized that's what kept touching me. I laughed, pretty loudly, and realized that I was being so quiet they probably didn't even know I was under the towel they were running on. I started drumming ceremoniously on my thighs because I didn't think ahead to bring any kind of drum. It was a good meditation and also seemed to keep the little critters away.

Since we got to the site near nightfall there wasn't a lot of time before I got tired. I decided that I would walk out to the road to look at the stars, since we had a pretty good tree covering where we were, and then go to bed. I walked out to find myself wishing I was wearing my glasses so that I could see better and ventured back to the car (it really wasn't that far) to get them.

Now if you are a parent or know a parent, you may know how messy cars can get with kids. My ex and I had a running joke about all of the food that would pile up around my car. In fact, one day I got the nerve to vacuum it and within 10 minutes my son had managed to dump both a container of chicken and a bag of trail mix on his lap. These are both foods that he is usually good with and it seemed like a total coincidence (a hilarious one at that) that he did this.


Fast forward to the present moment and I am walking to the car, go to open it, and with my iPhone light I see something moving inside the car seat. It was flipped upside down in the drivers seat, as I had mentioned I turned the back cab into a bed. It was one of those damn mice! I had left the back door open and it, being nocturnal, came out for food while it was dark probably smelling all the things inside my car from a distance away. I was floored, how was I going to get this thing out of my car with all of this stuff piled everywhere and a child sleeping in the back?! I tried to scare the mouse out and it just hid. I left the back door open and went to say goodnight to the stars thinking maybe the mouse would leave out the back while I was gone. The stars were even more gorgeous now that I could see them clearly. They danced across the sky as if meticulously choreographed by some great magic making creature. Upon return I went to replace my glasses and guess what, not only was that little mousey still there - HE HAD A FRIEND! They were both inside the car seat! What the hell? What am I going to do now? I thought. I again tried to scare them away.

I chased those little furry creatures around my car for an hour. I kid you not. I could see them poke their little heads out and when they got scared they would run through the back cab around the edges of the little nest that I had set up. I wanted them out! I didn't want to trap them in the car with us, but I also didn't want to leave the doors open for more to come. AND it would get cold. Closing the doors was necessary. I kept trying to scare them and one actually left. The other mousey would hide in the frame of the car. Nearing the end of that hour I thought, maybe it wouldn't be so bad. Maybe it would clean up the car a little bit, and it's not even touching our bed any ways. Just like that it proved my wrong by running through the blankets my son was curled up in and the Mama Bear inside me flipped her shit! I'm a vegetarian, but at that point I would have killed that little mouse if it would have held still long enough. I continued rampaging through the car trying to get the mouse out and reluctantly decided to go to bed.

 

After I got all settled and curled up next to my child, I listened as my little not-friend ran around. I again thought, maybe it would be okay, just to have that thought met with the site of mouse poop on the edge of the futon mattress. I again had a flip moment and scoured the blankets to make sure there wasn't any more. Until my phone died I would turn the flashlight on quickly every few minutes trying to see what the mouse was doing and scare it from our end of the car. When it died I gave in and tried to relax. I fell asleep that night to the sound of little mouse feet crawling every which way all over the car. I totally thought the car was just being swarmed by mice, until I realized that I was taking this whole situation to an alarmingly anxiety producing level and decided it wasn't worth the stress. I was literally contemplating how to leave the campsite that night because I was so on edge about the whole thing. It wasn't until I woke up in the morning to both silence and no little furry creature that I realized all the noise was Mr. Mouse trying to escape to the outside through the framework of the car. Haha, I thought. He didn't realize that by not leaving he would actually be stuck.

 

This trip was just my son and I, but while I was chasing around the little mouse I imagined that if anyone else were with me they be laughing profusely. If I wasn't so frantic, I would have been laughing at myself. I was so distraught over this tiny mouse, literally one of the most minimal risks to survival ever. That mouse was more scared of me then I was of him and likely would never ever touch me or my child. And I return to the whole "starting menstruation" thing to say, no wonder I was so fixated! Hormones going crazy, not even knowing yet, being triggered. When I woke up and realized this was happening, everything made sense.

 

I like to repeat the affirmation to myself "everything is happening at exactly the right time, exactly as it needs to." It's a coping mechanism when something feels out of my control. This affirmation manifested with my menstrual cycle. I learned from a yoga video after this adventure that in more primitively times, woman would have their work taken over by the men of their tribe for the first two days of menstruation so that they could go sit by the river and rest. Looking back, the fact that I started my cycle the morning after we arrived at the river was just mind blowing. And I had been intending most of the day to be one of rest. We woke and ate breakfast, walked around, played, and while Phoenix napped I both rested and nurtured my creative energy. After he woke it wasn't long before we left. I planned on this trip being very minimal. No cooked food, car sleeping, only what we needed with only the intention to relax into the natural surroundings for a break from the world.



 

 
 

 

 


We packed up and traveled back home, I was still gawking at the sites the entire way. I didn't realize and it is so amazing to see how much there is to explore within a single hour of where I'm living. The Columbia Gorge is just crawling on both sides with waterfalls, rivers, campgrounds, outdoor activity, etc. The man we had met before we started this journey had explained to me that with a Tiny House you can park in each National Forest for two months with no issue and simply move locations when needed. The idea of this totally inspires me. What would that be like? I've heavily considered living in an RV for years now. I thought it would be useful to be part of a festival circuit too until I figured out that my work doesn't sell well at a lot of festivals. The idea of living so minimally and rustic just feels so my style. I'm seriously considering purchasing that guy's house though, or if not that something similar. I've been making mental and physical lists of the place I wish to manifest, but that's another post for another time. Overall this trip was fantastic. Simply being near the water and hearing it for a long period of time was exactly what I needed and wanted. I'm grateful to have given my son this experience as well!



Cougar Hot Springs Adventure

Posted by elenahuerta10 on May 27, 2017 at 9:50 PM Comments comments (0)

The past few days was absolutely surreal. We left Portland with a couple main goals in mind:


1. Camping, where was unknown:

2. Cougar Hot Springs - which turned out to be in Willamette Forest near Umpqua. (By the way the amount of greenery in the state of Oregon is just unreal. Check out a map!)


We arranged for me to leave my car in Albany as we headed down South, so Curtis could continue to California for his own adventure. When we reunited and loaded the truck we headed to Eugene and traveled along the McKenzie River to the little town of Blue River, stopping a few times of course to stare googly-eyed at the scenery along the way while looking at campsite options. Once we got there he asked the locals about the best camping, which turned out to be along the reservoir. The Campground, Mona, was pretty empty and we found a spot that was almost entirely forested with some distance from the road. We could take an easy few minute walk across the street to get to the water, which we did once we got settled in the site. Phoenix, of course, had a blast throwing rocks into the water and quickly became accustomed to climbing the bank!











Once we returned I set up Phoenix's tracks inside the tent. Last week he asked me for train tracks and I went on a virtual hunt (OfferUp) to find some that I could pick up in Portland before we left on the trip. I did, and we picked them up while Phoenix was with his Dad. Seeing him play with his first tracks was enough, seeing how adorable he was enjoying them in the tent was over the top amazing. We joked that we should have brought two tents so he could keep that one to play in!






I planned our meals and brought all the things to create them, which ensued. After we ate I got Phoenix to sleep and we laid out under the stars. The campground we chose had a sort of tree framework where in the middle, the sun could peek in during the day and at night the stars could be seen as though we were completely secluded in the midst of the forest. For the first part of the night, it was as though someone put the Big Dipper right in a picture frame! Curtis thanked me for going along with his plan of figuring out where to stay the night along the way. He said I didn't seem stressed about not knowing, and I wasn't! I didn't look at it as not knowing, I looked at it as though we were just figuring things out. It worked out beautifully because had we planned out every detail, we might not have found that perfect campsite that the locals had recommended to him.







The next day we made breakfast and took our time playing, deciding that soon we would head across the water to the day parking site where a beach is. From there we would head over to the Hot Springs while Phoenix napped in the car. It was a short little stop, or at least it seemed short, where I actually did go in the water for a couple minutes until Phoenix was worried I would drown. We ate lunch before we left to the next stop.










There were so many trees along the drive to Cougar Hot Springs, SO MANY! And since it was on the edge of Cougar Reservoir we had to stop and stare at the water on the way. When we got there Phoenix continued to sleep for another hour and half, which gave us time to look at the water within a short distance of the truck and rest in the truck bed to recoup energy stores for the springs. This also involved me making some of the iced coffee for us to enjoy together in the sun. Some clouds started to roll in, and we didn't think much of it. By the time Phoenix woke up the sky was totally covered as though it was going to rain. I didn't expect that at all, it was supposed to be sunny both days! We were ready and the rain came in, high winds for a few minutes - I was on the fence about still going to the springs but Curtis reasoned that the rain probably would only be present as suddenly as it had come. The walk was a short 1/8 of a mile, mostly through tree coverings, to get to the well maintained Hot Springs. We grabbed our things, wrapped up in towels and headed that way.






The walk to the springs feels like heading deep into another world. I love Oregon, the fallen trees overgrown with mossy fixtures and leading to new plant life. The walk was fairly short, but when we got there Phoenix was not interested. It took a while, but I had brought his bath tub teapot and used my Mom super-powers to play with it to make the water look like the most amazing thing on this Earth while Curtis held Phoenix and made happy admiration noises. Soon he warmed up but still wouldn't take his shirt off. The springs are clothing optional - a huge benefit to having a toddler because he is potty trained enough to go in naked. It took me ditching my bathing suit and convincing him it was a giant bath (it kind of was!) to finally take off his wet shirt that was making him cold. These springs were perfect for kids because the natural levels of the rocks gave him places to stand/sit in the water enough to both play and be warm - even in the rainy mist. The springs weren't very busy, but still had a fair amount of people. Phoenix watched the other kids around for a while as well, never actually talking to any of them. By the end of the adventure he was happy to leave. We must have stayed a good few hours before heading back to the truck to eat snacks/dinner.


 

When it started dripping water from the sky, one of our concerns was the fact that the tent cover wasn't on the tent. It was fairly covered but we left with the readiness that our blankets might be wet and we might need to reevaluate staying another night. Sure enough when we returned, the 10 minutes of rain did dampen the blankets. It wasn't much, but with the air growing colder the thought that they wouldn't dry out any more than they already were was evident, so we packed up and set off to find a place in town. On one of our earlier detours, Curtis saw a little locally owned motel in Blue River that when we stopped at turned out to have rooms available last minute at a discounted rate. I have to say, it was actually really nice to be warm next to the fireplace and take a real shower that next morning!


On the way back to my car we took a scenic route through Clear Water Lake where the underground forest is. Unfortunately we couldn't see the forest because you have to go out by boat, and it was closing in on Phoenix's naptime so we didn't stay. It's on our list of things to see now! Before looking for the forest we did get to stop at the falls and go for a short walk. Phoenix wanted to hike the whole way, but we needed to get his grumpy self to sleep. The detour went through the forest, up through Sweet Home where my family is, and then through the highway. It gave us a good chance to reflect and I was able to point out some of my childhood and adulthood memories to him along the way.




 

Phoenix and I stopped and saw my Grandma after we parted ways with Curtis, and continued on our way home. Most of that driving time I spent in awe overload about how great that trip was, how everything seemed to line up perfectly, and the little moments along the way where I was entranced by the whole sensory experience that we created. Even the times where Curtis and I would look at each other and go "what now?" we figured things out without little issue.

 

I left on that trip not really knowing what to expect, but with a vision of awesomeness that came quickly to life. I had the best company I could've asked for. That first morning we all woke up and Curtis took Phoenix to the water so I could wake up and stretch. He'd actually taken the tent cover off so we could all look at the trees, which is what I did in meditation after they left and also why the tent cover was off when it later rained for those few minutes. What a beautiful feeling it was to wake up in the middle of the forest and feel that everything was right. I didn't know how much I needed this experience until I was there. My inspiration started flowing, I felt totally free like I used to when I adventured during the summers on my own, and even better that I had two amazing people to share that feeling with this time. I've come so far this past year - in asking for what I want, in knowing what I need, in allowing myself to be a vulnerable person again in some of the most soul crushing ways. There's beauty in this place, there's beauty in every day. There's beauty in the ways we, as people, interact with each other and there's lessons to be learned out in this world. Never let a pain become your life, because if you can even inch past it there will be something amazing that you never knew you could feel on the other side.

Numerology

Posted by elenahuerta10 on May 23, 2017 at 1:50 AM Comments comments (0)

Do you ever go to the store to purchased something and find that the total of what you spent stands out? Or while driving on the freeway you notice that the odometer reads a series of 5 and 6's? There's a reason why these numbers stand out to you!

We live in an existance that has multiple levels, and there are Angels and Guides out there that are always in communication with us. That nagging feeling to go a certain place at a certain time, that sudden draw to a random stranger - some of these intuitions are stimulated on the planes alternative to the physical by our friendly protectors. Numbers is a way that these beings can communicate information with us, or validate what we are feeling. For example, 333 means the ultimate completion manifestation of Christ Consciousness or unconditional Divine love. I know I've seen this series of numbers on occasion, especially when I feel like I am going through an inward transition in my life. Today I was speaking with someone who saw 5000 - a sign that their guides are reaffirming that they are on the right path.

It can be fun to explore this realm of understanding, and really easy! All that is necessary is to expand on the finding that already strike you. That series of repeating numbers is already conversation worthy, however looking deeper into what the numbers mean together could provide some insight into the moment that you don't already have.



When researching, there are a couple sites I recommend:

Dorreen Virtue is fantastic. She is someone I admire for her ability to be in contact with the Divine.

 

Ask Angels is a website I frequent when looking up numerology.

Sun signs  is another great website!




Enjoy! Trust yourself and trust the universe. Always be curious and let your light shine!

RAW Artists: REVEAL

Posted by elenahuerta10 on September 4, 2016 at 6:20 PM Comments comments (0)

On August 18th I was part of the RAW Artist showcase in Los Angeles, REVEAL!

I've been a RAW Artist since 2013 - you can view my profile HERE



I love watching people peruse my artwork. My favorite question to ask viewers at shows, is "what is your favorite stone?"



I had a pretty awesome group of models helping me with the event. They wore my work throughout the night and had pedestal rotations where the crowd could view the pieces in a more formal setting!



The models did a fantastic job. :)





It was a successful showcase!

Custom Bracelets

Posted by elenahuerta10 on August 25, 2016 at 9:30 PM Comments comments (0)

A while ago I posted a blog about the step-by-step creation of a custom bracelet made for one of my return customers. At the time I didn't have access to the pictures of her previous custom orders, but promised to share them at a later date. Now I can!

This was her first ever creation that I worked on for her:




This customer found me and had a bracelet she wanted to have custom made. A YouTuber that she followed had one like this made in silver with a clear Quartz crystal focal point and star/moon charms. My customer was envisioning one similar but made with a stone that was more meaningful to her. Aventurine is one of her birthstones and the one that was decided upon for her bracelet. She wanted her to be made with gold materials and also have matching beads within the bracelet itself. This piece I call the "Aventurine Goddess Bracelet"!



For my customer's next order, she envisioned a bracelet similar in style to her last that was a representation of her first anime - inspired love, Sailor Moon! She envisioned this next one made with a bead/bow combination to match each of the Sailor planet goddesses with Sailor Moon being represented by an Angel Aura Quartz point. As we progressed through the order she ended up feeling drawn to an Angel Aura Quartz cluster instead, as can be seen in the final creation!





That's some serious WOW! Right?!

For those of you that aren't familiar with Sailor Moon, or want your memory refreshed, here is a list of the Sailor Moon Goddess colors that corrospond with the bead/bow sets on the bracelet. I also added the crystal bead that was used for your information!


Sailor Mars - red - Red Agate

Sailor Mercury - light blue - Opalite

Sailor Jupiter - green - Aventurine

Sailor Venus - yellow orange - Citrine

Sailor Uranus - dark blue - Blue Chalcedony

Sailor Neptune - teal or aquamarine - Turquoise

Sailor Pluto - black - Black Tourmaline

Sailor Saturn - purple -Amethyst

Sailor Chibi - pink - Rose Quartz


This was definitely one of the most detailed custom orders I've completed. My customer and I were extremely happy with the way that both of these bracelets came out. Since these two I've also completed 3 more custom pieces for her of vastly different designs, two of which were gifts for her parents.

I love that I can bring people's custom order jewelry visions to life!

You'll Know

Posted by elenahuerta10 on July 9, 2016 at 11:05 PM Comments comments (0)

One of the absolute, most empowering phrases that has ever been spoken to me. "You'll know." In times where I've doubted myself and gone to another for advice, this information was by far the most helpful. It told me a couple things:

This person believed in the power of intuition.

This person believed in the power of THEIR intuition.

And this person believed in the power of MY intuition.

How freaking fantastic is that?! To assert to someone how in tune they really are, and how much they actually know whenever they doubt themselves. I'm sure there are professionals out there who can offer useful advice in certain situations, but I personally find that this is best done while maintaining this viewpoint of trusting another person to trust themselves. We, as individuals, only have ourselves around 24/7. Only have our OWN thoughts and feelings around 24/7. We need to be our own best friend, our own highest trust, and be encouraged to do so. I love the thought that we can do this for our loved ones and friends : It's so insanely beautiful!



An Inspired Life

Posted by elenahuerta10 on June 23, 2016 at 1:20 AM Comments comments (0)

I had an experience today that was rather profound. I found myself questioning what it is that I am doing - what it is that I'm trying to accomplish. Why was I here? Where should I go from here? I had thought I had all these things figured out, but suddenly was feeling like I was doing everything wrong and like I wasn't where I should be. I started thinking about what I might be manifesting in my life, the things I've been focusing on, where my energy had been going. I progressed to start thinking about all the things I *wanted* to keep manifesting in my life. Why did I want these things? What was this yearning that I was feeling and how could I help it come out. It hit me like a freight train - I was reminded that really what I wanted to do here is spread love. I wasn't in the wrong place, I was in exactly the right place; because right where I am is where love is always needed. Compassion, empathy, forgiveness, embracing life - feeling everything around me and trying to have a positive impact.

We all have these moments sometimes, because nothing in our lives necessarily comes out perfect. It takes a lot of work, it takes bringing that yearning in our hearts to fruition. So much so that it's all you can feel is this crazy radiant divinity meant to flow out of yourself and into the world. We all do this differently. The whole reason why I started this website, why I have this blog, is because one of my major outlets is my artwork. Jewelry - I send my pieces off hoping that they bring each and every wearer love and light. I want it to make them feel their inner divinity, to show them how, and express it in whatever way calls to their soul. What an amazing power we have - to inspire others. And the most magical part of the experience, at least to me, is that all we have to do is *want* to inspire them. All we have to do is intend and send those thoughts out into the world with whatever we are doing. This is true alchemy. This is true purpose. This is who we are.



Duality

Posted by elenahuerta10 on June 21, 2016 at 1:30 PM Comments comments (0)

Some of the happiest moments in our lives can also breed some of the saddest simultaneously. Internally we have a wisdom; one which knows that life has a constant flow. Nothing remains the same. Not people, not feelings, not the environment, etc. It's just a fact of life that we and everything around us are constantly changing.

Sometimes in the midst of an ecstatically happy moment, we are hit with a sudden with an feeling of sadness that is just as overwhelming. We may not realize at the time, but this is just part of the experience of duality. Just as well, if we are in a moment of extreme sadness, we can be comforted by our inner knowing that the moment is only that and it will not last forever. It's best to embrace these as they come and let them go as we continue moving through the flow of our lives.

In 2013 I was nominated into RAW artists accessory designer of the year category for the organization. It was one of the most exhilerating moments in my career as an artist. At the same though, it was also the most frightening. With this event came a whole host of responsibility and hope - it was something I really wanted and while I was excited I also experienced boughts of disbelief and sadness. I wondered if I really deserved the title, what would happen if I didnt get it, what would happen if I did. I remember taking my daily walks around the neighborhood and through the forestry of the area, submersed in all these emotions and vowing that no matter what happened I would just keep going. I didn't want the emotions to waver me from staying on my path - because all of them were only temporary.

As it turned out I had an amazing time at the event and gained a lot of exposure, but another woman won the title for Portland and continued to the next round. I was happy for her however - my business was thriving and was just happy to have the experience really. I felt that she rightly won and needed to. Her work was gorgeous as well - handmade fae steampunk style leather accessories and clothing.

Just remember when you have those moments of feeling like life is just a complete mess - it kind of is. But that's just life. Things are always happening, changing, flowing; and it's not about *if* life goes on, but *when* and how we decide to handle it.






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